I have a blog already but it is very specific in it's topic. This is my blog about everyday life, trials, things I see, things I think about, etc. It's where I will go to muse ("out loud") about movies, politics, fashion, and all sorts of other things that cross my mind. I have Inattentive ADD so believe me, there are lots of random things running through my mind at any given time.
Today is my last day off of school for the long holiday weekend. Back to the grind tomorrow. Algebra is going to kick my butt for the next few weeks but then I'll be done with it and I get 2 weeks off before starting an even busier course load next quarter. My kids are spending the summer with my parents this summer. It will be a big adjustment for all of us seeing as I have been a full time mom for the last 9 years. I'm both sad and glad. It's nice to be able to do something for myself but I have loved being home with them. I am finally getting to pursue a career in something I love...makeup. I am excited to spend the remainder of my working years to making women feel beautiful. I know they say beauty comes from within but we all know that it's outer beauty that people notice. If you feel ugly, it doesn't matter if you are the sweetest person alive. You feel gross. I want women to feel beautiful in their own skin. Makeup is such a simple change. If you make a mistake, you can wash it off and try again. It's fairly inexpensive and it doesn't matter if you are heavy or thin, dark or light, etc. All women should feel beautiful and if I can help them find a way to show off what is inside through their face, then YAY!
I am spending this summer taking care of me since my kids will be gone. I am going to learn how to defend MYSELF. I have no problem being mouthy when it comes to defending others but I swallow a lot of crap when it comes to myself. I will take and take and take people's anger and bs until I finally lose it. It's time for me to learn to be assertive when it comes to ME. I am going to work on house projects and painting and taking some classes that I am interested in, in addition to my school work. I am going to find a church that I like, I am going to go back to the gym. I want to lose some weight. I want to really get to know myself and what I want in life. No drama from others allowed. NONE. If that means I have to cut out some people, then so be it. I've already started doing that. It was a painful cut but necessary. Sometimes relationships run their course and you can still love them but know that it's not healthy for you. This person called me self absorbed. I'm not. I have a hard time being self absorbed but I am going to be this summer. Actually I don't think of it as being self absorbed, I think of it as FINALLY taking care of me. There is nothing wrong with that. If I take care of me, then I am better able to take care of others.
Anyway...it's time for me to get ready for bed. I'll write more tomorrow. XOXO Katie
